It's only 2 weeks in to the new year, and 2018 is already coming on strong... Since the clock struck 12 on the eve of 2018, the tides of change seemed to engulf my heart and lift my feet from the shores they were trying so desperately to hold onto. Last week, I stepped out in faith to leave my position as an employee with my church. My next school semester starts this week, and Lord only knows what is happening the week after that...
Change is in the air for 2018... Feeling the swelling tide surrounding me throughout 2017, I prayed at the Lord's feet to show me where, when, and how to move. For the better part of the year, I received silence.
"What do you want me to do? What do you need me to do?"
"Just be still," He replied each time.
And yet, I knew in the pit of my stomach that change was coming. The tide pooled around my feet, and I ached to move deeper with the waves while still being so fearful of where this new journey might take me. However, I have learned the hard way that many issues surface when we move without God. When we try to run ahead of His perfectly time plan we are just asking for trouble. So, my frustration and impatience continued to ebb away at my peace.
Then, seemingly all at once, the time was clear last week. "Move! Move, right now."
The release of God's great will split the seas before me, so clear that I could discern the NEW on the other side of the waves... Change was coming on strong, but I was STILL SCARED of my own calling and the impending loss of my current position. I was reminded of the Israelites, and their freedom from Egypt. The Lord even recognized their anxiety as He led them out of Egypt in a round about way saying “If they see that they have to fight a war, they may change their minds and go back to Egypt.” (Exodus 13:17)
Even though they had waited so many years for their own freedom, how strange it must have felt to be finally be granted that permission. Consider how heavy the unfamiliarity of that freedom must have felt, and how rushed and unsure they must've been when that first word of their release was spread. As Pharoah's army approaches they exclaim to Moses"Didn’t we tell you in Egypt, ‘Leave us alone! Let us go on serving the Egyptians’?" (Exodus 14:12). One can only imagine the angst and trepidation at their requirement to immediately evacuate those lands that they considered home, even as slaves!
There was equal parts overwhelming and overjoying that their position under the Egyptians was OVER...
With change comes anxiety, but with anxiety comes a chance to lean on God as we stretchhhhhh our faith in Him. Are you feeling the tides of change? Maybe you hear Him calling you to leave the despair of your current situation. Perhaps it is leaving a position you are no longer called to, moving on from a toxic relationship, or even fasting from a person or substance. You are not alone, so take heart! He is calling us to change, and its coming on strong... But if He is the one calling you out upon the waters, you can restore your peace in knowing that "it will be wild, it will be great and it will be full of Him."