Perhaps you've heard me talking about weight and waiting, or you've struggled (just like me) with filling life's wounds with the salve of comfort. For me personally, that salve is too often in the form of food - sweet, salty, gooey, crunchy: food. This is a problem, well, a BIG problem for me. Food as a source of comfort, intimacy, peace (food a source of anything) has failed me.
Food has failed me all the way up to 290 lbs...
I recently got very transparent about this struggle with food, thyroid, and weight on Facebook. Based on the huge response I received from friends and family, my guess is that food has failed you too. Look at the the world around you and you'll see this is not a rare occurrence. Food is failing entire generations and nations! GMO's, pesticides, sugars, artificial ingredients, chemically manipulated everything: all purposed and fashioned to prevent hunger and the death that can follow it. But it's not working....9 million people a year still die from hunger and hunger related illnesses (MercyCorps)
Instead, people consuming these items are bloating up and becoming dependent on these man-made substances. Sound familiar? Research has continuously shown sugar and caffeine to be addictive in nature, in some cases equivocal to drug and alcohol use. But, I don't need a scientific source to confirm the misery and despair that my broken relationship with food has delivered for me. Isolation, fear, hopelessness, anxiety, internal and external conflict - its all been provided for in abundance through my mounting weight and an ever suffocating waist size. And still I hunger...
But there is HOPE, and I refuse to succumb to the hell that the enemy has drawn up around me in my own flesh. Because the Lord has MORE - He will SATISFY and SUSTAIN me in my hunger.
I'm reminded of a Misty Edwards song, "Soul Cry" that took me through some really rough times as a single mother:
"As the deer pants for the water, my soul longs for You As the body dies without water, my soul dies without You They may say, "Come on, get over it. Drink, be merry, for tomorrow we die" That's why I'd rather sit in the house of mourning than at the table with fools Blessed are the hungry—You said it, I believe it Hunger is an escort into the deeper things of You You satisfy, you satisfy"
If you feel this hunger within you as well, this deep well
begging for more of Him, would you pray with me?
Father, THANK YOU for the hunger and thirst you have provided as an escort to You. Your Word says in Matthew that "those who hunger and and thirst for righteousness will be satisfied." So, we are seeking our portion from the only Source that satisfies, from the only One who holds the FULL provision. The Lover of our Soul, would You use our hunger to propel your purposes and plans on the Earth? The well of life starts with your Son, and we submit to our portion in YOU, Abba. Amen!
He satisfies even as I hunger,
Ari is a wife to a nerdy stud named Joseph, a mama to 3 rowdy kids (sometimes confused with goats, understandably), and a lover of words and yarn. More importantly, she's a daughter of the Most High, and she believes that women are being called to create an atmosphere of worship in their homes and relationships.